“You Spoke. . .I listened. . .Now I Understand” – a Testimonial
My grandpa had a farm and I would live for the weekends to go out and hang with the horses. I loved everything about them. The smell of the farm just made me melt. I rode horses for most of my life. My entire life I have had a special connection to animals. I have always been drawn to them and them to me. As a little girl, at the age of 2, I used to feed a squirrel who came to the back door of my home. I drove my mom crazy with my love of animals, constantly rescuing and saving anything and everything. I would beg my mom to go to the SPCA to just sit with animals and I would become tearful when she finally dragged me out and told me we could not take all of them home. Growing up I was fortunate that my parents loved animals as well. We always had dogs, cats, birds, guinea pigs and horses. Our dogs had puppies, our cats kittens, our guinea pigs, babies and I was even blessed to help deliver a foal with my dad. I can not think of a time I did not have animals in my life. As soon as I was on my own, the first thing I did was buy a dog, actually 2. From that day forward I would always have 2 dogs. They were part of my essence. Their love like no other, absolutely unconditional. Each dog brought something new and with each one their passing brought heartache beyond belief. Each time that long horrible drive to the cold room where my love for them could not be fully represented. Each time I could not imagine another dog taking their place. Each one had their story and hold endless memories for me.
Over the course of that last 5 years I began to learn about a different world and became curious about how to listen to the universe and my soul. I have always been opposed to medicine and doctors and been curious about what else could be available for healing. In October of 2022 my mom passed away and it was a very spiritual event for my sisters and I. We experienced how we could talk to and hear my mom over the course of her transitioning through the week. Another moment in time that would bring me closer to my awakening to the power of the universe and how we can always talk to ones spirit even after their human vessel is no longer available. I knew there was more to this world than our physical selves.
Right before I left to be with my mom I found out that my dog Henry had cancer. I was devastated He was my rock part of my soul. I had been going through a lot and he was always there for me. He was unlike any other dog I had ever had. He knew me through and through. We lived for one another. He was so sensitive and very powerful energetically. He was a special dog. As soon as I got the news I panicked … I called my vet and as luck would have it I got into the oncologist before leaving for my moms. I could not imagine loosing him and my mom. The 2 people that meant the most to me. I decided that chemotherapy was how I was going to keep Henry with me longer.
It was at this time I met Michele Lowry at a Women’s Networking event. She spoke to a group of us and I was completely drawn to her and her story of communication with animals. Over the course of the next year I spent as much time with her as possible listening and drinking up her knowledge, attending her workshops and watching her communicate with animals of all kinds. I knew in my heart she was going to play a huge part in my life and Henry’s and would be mentor that would help launch me into another world with animals. She taught me how I had the ability to talk to my dog if I just quieted and listened, I spent that Year doing just that.
It started by me telling Henry that I needed for him to tell me exactly what he wanted, how he felt. Did he want PT? Did he want a particular food supplement? And make it clear to me when he was ready to leave this physical world. He had been through a lot and at the end of chemo it was Michele that actually saved him by tapping into HIM and what HE Needed.
She told me he was not in any way ready to leave and was up for more time. Chemo almost killed him and the vet did not know what to do, but Michele did. He became stronger and stronger and all of his hair grew back as well as his sweet smile. We spent tons of time playing in nature laughing and sharing. He was my teacher not just my soul mate.
Then he was again diagnosed with returning cancer. This time I listened to him as I had learned to do with Michele’s help and told him in no way would I ever do chemo again and I would do what he WANTED. The first time I did not stop and listen nor did I know I could. That included water therapy until he told me no more. That included changing food weekly, sometimes daily through his guidance. I did not hang onto: you need to eat this or take these supplements. He would guide me through the process. I just had to listen. It was his journey not mine.
Michele continued to coach me as I was still learning and falling into panic at times until her gentle words would say “ask Henry.” I kept telling him to please tell me and make it totally clear when you are ready. I began to suspect that he was feeling off and on December 3rd I drove out of the tennis barn and I heard him say, “I am ready.” I came to a screeching halt and looked up to the sky and he repeated, “I am ready.” In that moment my son called me and said mom please come home Henry is not good.
I went home and immediately called Michele. She said, “It is time to make plans.” I was heartbroken, yet I knew what I had to do. I called my sister in Colorado and within 5 minutes she found a beautiful woman who would soon show up as an angel just hours later. Again Henry was now guiding Kerry from afar. My son Chase and I sat in the closet for hours with him and my puppy Winnie and candles and crystals and beautiful music and we held him.
After a few hours he wanted to go downstairs and then we snuggled on the couch. I called Michele again to touch base. She said, “You know what to do Wendy.” She asked me what are you doing at 5:15? Henry just told me this number. I turned to my son and asked, “What time is bball?” He said, “6:45 but I am not going.” Then Michele asked if we were watching a movie. “Yes,” I said. Michele said, “Henry just told her that there was message in the movie.” At this moment Henry seemed like he was doing okay. Chase and I began to waffle in our decision…
At that moment Hen got up and started to pace and pant. I knew at that minute that he was saying “please, please I told you I was ready.” He walked upstairs and laid on the floor. I had called the vet that my sister found and she was able to come to my house in New Hampshire. It was all playing out just like he wanted.
Chase and I sat and cuddled him and loved on him and the tumor was literally growing in my hand. By the time my angel Brie showed up he was just lying in our arms. We spent another 1/2 hour with her and we knew it was time. Brie Put the catheter in his leg. She barely started the formula and he quietly closed his eyes. Brie said, “Gosh he was so ready I only used 30% of what a dog of his size would need.” We held onto him tightly and Brie looked at us and said he is gone.
The tears flowed down all of our faces and Winnie was above me on the bed and put her paws on my shoulders saying, “I am here for you.” Brie looked at her watch and it was 5:15 the exact time that Michele relayed to me from Henry.
Later that night Chase and I went downstairs to sit by the fire and reminisce about Henry and finish watching the movie that Henry had relayed to Michele. As we neared the end of Good Will Hunting Chase said, “Mom I know the message, I have seen this movie! And in that moment when Robin Williams hugs Matt Damon and says, ‘It is not your fault. It is not your fault.’ I knew that was Henry just reiterating that I had done all that I could do and it was his choice and time.
Michele Lowry made this entire journey possible through her teaching , feeling pain, reminding me to be quiet and listen, reminding me that I knew what Henry wanted and I did not have to second guess myself. Reminding me that I am powerful. Now Henry’s transition a perfect memory. A memory that is only the beginning of where life will take me.
Michele is a beautiful human that reminds and teaches us that we have the ability to connect to our animals and that they deserve a beautiful ending, just like their beautiful life. She reminds us that IF we listen they will tell us what they want, not what we want for them. Many times these 2 things are not in harmony and our animals deserve their wishes be heard, as they serve us with unconditional love their entire lives.